Choose Your Comfort:
Ein Essay von Jinkx Monsoon

Die Dragqueen Jinkx Monsoon schreibt für muun in einem bewegenden Text über Freiheit und Selbstbestimmung.

Jinkx Monsoon aus Seattle hat die fünfte Staffel von RuPaul’s Drag Race gewonnen. Das war 2013. Nun hat die Drag-Ikone sich mit der Berliner Schlafprodukt-Marke muun zusammengetan: Für den zweiten Teil der Kurzfilmreihe „Choose Your Comfort“, in der unangepasste Persönlichkeiten und ihr Verständnis von Komfort portraitiert werden, steht Jinkx Monsoon vor der Kamera. Sie erzählt von ihrem Werdegang zur internationalen Drag-Größe, über den Druck, Normen zu entsprechen – und über das befreiende Gefühl, es nicht mehr zu tun.

 

Außerdem hat Jinkx Monsoon ein sehr persönliches Essay geschrieben. Ein Manifest über Freiheit und Selbstbestimmung, das wir Ihnen unten, zusammen mit einigen Eindrücken aus dem Kurzfilm, exklusiv präsentieren. Viel Spaß beim Lesen!

„Jinkx Monsoon was born when I was about 14 years old. There was a dance at my local queer youth resource center, the theme was fairytales and I decided to go as the Queen of Hearts. It was the first time I ever dressed in full drag and I just remember looking at myself in the mirror and by all means the makeup was terrible, the hair was terrible, the outfit was basic but I still looked in the mirror and I saw the most gorgeous woman in the whole wide world.

I spent many years trying to present as something that I thought the world wanted me to be. Then I was given the opportunity to be a full time drag queen, which means I don’t have to fit into the real world anymore. I don’t have to work a day job, wear a uniform, or try to present us something that was prescribed for me based on my genitalia or my gender or my physicality. I get to decide how I want to present myself the world and nowadays I just feel very exuberant at the fact that I don’t have to pretend to be anything but myself.

There is nothing comfortable about wearing a pound of makeup and a big wig that you have to keep stable on your head. There is nothing comfortable about wearing a corset pressing on your ribcage and moving your organs into funny positions. There is nothing comfortable about wearing high heels and tights and restrictive dresses and tons of jewelry that gets stuck in your hair and get caught on your clothing. There is nothing comfortable about all of that.

But when you are a drag queen and you know how amazing you look and feel when you are wearing all of this, it tricks your brain into thinking that you could run a marathon, you could swim laps if you had to. I can’t let one element go if I’m in drag – if I don’t have heels on or if I’m not wearing my corset that day it doesn’t feel like I’m Jinkx. I have to have everything in place to feel like I’m embodying this creature I’ve created. And once I am wearing all of it and once I’m fully in the character and I’m living as Jinkx, none of that pain and none of that discomfort matters anymore, because I’ve become my ultimate self – this special, unique realization of the most intimate part of myself. And, suddenly my feet don’t hurt anymore and my ribcage doesn’t feel like it’s been mangled and suddenly my scalp isn’t burning with 50 bobby pins shoved into it. Suddenly I just feel like I’m on cloud nine and I can take on the whole wide world.

My name is Jinkx Monsoon, Seattle youngest MILF. I’m a premium Jewish, narcoleptic drag queen and the winner of season five of RuPaul’s Drag Race.“

18.08.2017 | Kategorien Berlin, Essay, News, Stil | Tags , , , , ,